Posted on Aug 1, 2016 in Blog |

PART 1 – The Instrumentals During Dad’s 26 days and nights in the hospital, I listened to particular songs depending on what I needed. The music helped close out the hospital noises, helped me calm my breathing and anxiety, and it gave me a place for my emotions to connect and feel safe. This music transcended me at times. It felt as though I was talking to Dad in some of the songs, giving words to emotions that were so strong, I wasn’t sure I could survive the pain. Some of the songs were significant in their melodic tone, some were because of the specific lyrics, and some, because they allowed my tears to flow more easily. And some were my simple prayers to God, pleading for Him to heal Dad. Some of us connect through words, some through deeds and others through music. In my pain, when I couldn’t find my words, these songs found them for me. I probably should have researched what each of these songs meant to the songwriters, but at the time I was choosing them, it didn’t matter. What mattered was how I could maintain hope, a sense of balance, and my connection to Dad. These are the songs that ended up on my list. The Instrumentals A Change in Circumstance – Secret Story by Pat Metheny The name of this song is what intrigued me originally. It was my ironic understatement for what was transpiring. The entire family always thought Mom would die before Dad solely based on her extensive medical history of strokes. The first two weeks of Dad’s medical crisis, we were all in shock and disbelief that this was actually happening. Cathedral in a Suitcase – Secret Story by Pat Metheny This song is what Heaven looks like: grand, opulent, vibrant, joyous. Epilogue: Writing in the Darkness II – Spiritland by Andrey Cachelero I found this song a few years ago when I had writer’s block. It took me to that dark place and let me walk around in it instead of just being afraid of and intimidated by it. And then it brought me to the light. And...

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