Posted on Dec 12, 2015 in Blog |
I should be Christmas shopping, either physically or on line. Instead, I am sitting in Starbucks sipping on a chai. My week started with surgery on Monday at 7:30 am and ended with staff resigning during my first hours back at work on Friday.
I have a lot to do between now and December 24th. And none of it matters to me right now.
I decided to come here to get some writing done instead of doing the necessary “chores” and sulking about it. This is my mental health day I think.
Inundated this week with emotions and riding a roller coaster that I think is probably normal for the holidays, but it always seems to catch me off guard. My healing from this latest surgery has gone significantly better than the first procedure a few weeks back. But today, I woke up with a tingling in my leg and when I tried to walk, I was like a weeble (“weebles wobble but they don’t fall down”). It took some balancing. I finally realized this is the phase of healing when the other veins are trying to take the load of the vein that has been cauterized. So there is a little stretching and expanding happening.
It’s a good representation of my life these past six months. I’m healing, but there is some wobbling happening. I have to get used to my new normal. It’s not good; it’s not bad. It just is.
I got a huge response to my previous blog about hanging in there until the miracle happens. So I know I am not alone and you aren’t either. A lot of us are feeling stress and my friend E., who landed in the hospital with a heart attack due to stress, will tell you it’s just not worth it to let that stress take over.
That’s why I am writing in Starbucks. I was stressed and couldn’t figure out a way to dispense with it. Writing is my go-to method. And I haven’t really written all week.
Every day between now and New Year’s I plan to do something for myself that is stress-free for at least 15 minutes. That’s my gift to myself (and to everyone around me). Yep, I could fill those 15 minutes with a lot of other stuff, but if I take those 15 minutes for me, I will actually get a lot more accomplished in the other minutes of my days. And just for the record, it can be more than 15 minutes. That’s the minimum.
Who is with me? Send me a note telling me what you did today for 15 minutes that was stress-free and just for you. Let’s see if we can get a list going.