Posted on Jan 1, 2014 in Blog |

One of my goals is to just write and post (with no editing). Here goes . . . I planned to write a really amazing, insightful, uplifting blog post today to start the new year. I read everyone else’s as they came through the email and on Facebook. I sat here instead and sulked. I don’t want to do anything today. I don’t want to talk about last year. I don’t want to plan for this year. I don’t want to make resolutions. I don’t want to set goals. Today, I want to play with my puppies, read, clean out my closet, do some needlepoint, and nap. I have to do laundry, so I guess I will put that on my want list to so it looks more politically correct. 2013 was great and it sucked. Done. 2014 is going to be similar. So what. I can’t change what happens. I can’t control it. I just have to get through it. I’m not even in a bad mood. I think I’m tired of having to DO things. I don’t want to “accomplish” anything today. I just want to BE. There you go. That’s what I want. For 50 years, I have been obsessed with DOING. And today is the first time I have wanted to just BE. Last night, as we sat around the dinner table, we talked about what our “word” for the year should be. We get to choose our words. I was trying to choose between Write, Health, and Uplift. But nix those. This year, my word is BE. I want to BE ME. I want to be authentic, real, honest, straight-forward. I want to surround myself AGAIN with those like me. I don’t like to play games. I hate politics. I resent pretense. I can’t stand schmoozing or schmoozers. I lost my puppy almost a year ago. I miss Riley. I adore these two puppies sleeping beside me right now. But Riley and I had a connection I never had with another animal. And I miss that. I miss him. Earlier in the morning before he was killed, Riley played with me in bed, letting...

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