Posted on Jan 1, 2011 in Blog |

A year ago today, I experienced the first of three days of vertigo. It was not a good start to 2010. Some of the Bartonella was hanging out in my Eustachian tube causing inflammation and thus the vertigo. I remember waking up in bed, turning my head from the side to face forward to see what time it was. When I turned my head, the entire room came with it, reminding me of a very bad hangover I had in my twenties, or making me think I was on a topsy-turvy boat. Then, the nausea came. Luckily, I had an empty stomach, so there were no further consequences for that. When I turned my head, the walls moved with me; I had no solid grounding. I turned over to get up, thinking it would go away, or if I got upright, I could correct all this. I got turned over, my legs off the bed onto the floor. But I could not sit up. Every time I put my hand against the bed to push myself up to sit, I fell over to the side again as though being pulled flat against the bed. The more I struggled to sit up, the more disoriented I became. I could not get my bearings; I could not get stabilized. And of course, it was first thing in the morning . . . I had to pee! It’s the ‘little’ moments like these that create some of my most vivid memories of what Bartonella / Lyme disease does to a person. My husband is in the other room, not far away, but in this moment, I am so disoriented, so confused, I can’t even cry out for him. I am alone in a terrifying moment battling this disease. And at this moment, I have no idea if this condition is going to last a few more moments, an hour, or a day. This is the moment I want to freeze for those who DON’T suffer from Lyme disease. Because these moments happen any day, any time, for any length of time. That is the uncertainty of Lyme disease. On a daily basis....

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