Posted on Jun 18, 2010 in Blog |

It’s 11:30 pm and after 45 minutes of lying in bed with the lights out, I finally got up and decided that if I write everything down that is swirling in my head, maybe I can leave it on the paper and go back to bed and fall asleep quickly. Swirling -worrying about a long distance friend with Lyme who had a few great weeks and now is below low in physical and emotional well-being. This disease injects a new definition of weariness into our lives. It is a physical and mental exhaustion beyond anything I have ever endured or fathomed before. By the time I got to my Lyme diagnosis, I was already exhausted, too tired to be angry and in too much pain to realize how much energy it would take me to heal . . . – I need to send a check to Craig for the chickens tomorrow – it’s Stephen’s last week of his junior year – I didn’t get as much time with him this year because A: he had a car and drove himself to and from school; B: he had a car and went out a lot; C: our respective illnesses had us sleeping or lying in exhaustion more often. It’s his senior year next year and I’m already dreading it. It’s our last year . . . oh, boy, don’t go there . . . – I need to send out to ad packets to vendors who called me today – it’s Father’s Day and I haven’t the energy to go to a certain locale to find a certain item. Am hoping I have the energy tomorrow or Saturday. And desperately trying not to let it slip what I am looking for. – hamburgers for dinner tomorrow night; do we have buns or do I need to pick them up? – remember to bring home the Father’s Day cards that I hid in my office. – my physical therapy went really well yesterday, but she absolutely exhausted me to the point that I spent the day in bed, not even sitting up. I took two cat naps, slept hard last...

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